My name is Bailey Saxmundham. I am an avatar in the virtual world of Second Life. I enjoy shopping, dancing, music and exploring new places. I have worked as a host, DJ and venue manager. I have children despite being a pixel sex virgin. I have owned a shop. I have a home and a pixel cat.
All of the above statements are more about what I am rather than who I am. I am not sure who I am. I am a person who registers somewhere in the transgender arena. I represent mostly as female in Second Life these days, though I do have avatars who have male and female bodies. I find it hard to be Bailey as a male avatar; it doesn't make sense to me and makes me feel very uncomfortable.
It's a difficult path to walk - just as it is in real life. Second Life has a large focus on sexual activities and partnering. I have yet to meet anyone who is interested in a relationship with someone like me, someone who is mixed gender. I am not alone in gender swapping in Second Life, but not everyone admits it. I don't judge those who hide their true selves, I can understand why they do it.
In real life I have a male body; in fact, I look really masculine. I do, however, have very feminine mannerisms and a feminine voice. It can be quite difficult for people to accept apparently; neither straight communities nor gay communities know quite where I fit - though it is often the gay community who have the biggest struggle as they continue their search for the Holy Grail of gay partners - straight looking, straight acting. For years the way I sound has caused me to be the subject of much hilarity and revulsion.
As I get older and time moves on from my breakdown, I have realised something...I don't care how I am perceived or how people think of me. I am the one who has to live with being me - whoever that may be.
When it comes down to it one thing is certain - I am me.
- Bailey Saxmundham
- Hi, my name is Bailey and I am an avatar in Second Life. Although my avatar is predominantly female in Second Life, I am a gay male in real life. I choose to be female most of the time and don't see it as a big deal in a virtual world where so many people are furries, werewolves and inanimate objects. It is all fantasy. This blog is about me, the places I go, the clothes I wear, the people I meet, etc.
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